In the beginning

This was taken 2/2/07. Jonah's just a heartbeat in a sac.

Time waits for no man

Gosh! Jonah is already 2 months old! Routines are still establishing and I'm still gaining my confidence. Many a times, as I look at Jonah, I ask myself...can I take care of my little one? I've come to a conclusion. I shouldn't ask such questions. Instead I should just ensure that I always give Jonah the proper care he needs.

It's really by God's grace that I've been able to care for Jonah, supplying him with sufficient milk to drink. I do wish that one day he can just sustain on the fresh source rather than the bottle. It hasn't been easy going to school while leaving Jonah behind. I guess the easy work in school makes me think of him more. I'm looking forward to the long break when I can take care Jonah myself.

Now Jonah is slowly able to focus his vision. A few days ago, when I went to check on him during the midnight feed, Jonah looked at me and smiled...the toothless smile made me melt inside. He's growing so fast. At times I wish he would grow faster so that I can play games with him and bring him to places. But there are also times I wish he would just stay as he is, tiny and helpless. It makes me want to protect him at all cost. My precious...